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You ever felt like you stayed in something for too long ??
For all the wrong reasons ??

You ever felt like, you went back for improvement and nothing improved?

What about, you ever felt like no matter the lessons you learned and who it made you into, it still was a waste of time?

You ever felt like you gave too many chances?

You ever felt like you couldn't escape?

It is hard finding what you want
there is someone for everyone right?

what if no matter all the searching you've done, your still unsatisfied.
I never was good and good-bye

I never will be.

Decisions are difficult sometime, it takes a natural born leader to make them
i "thought" i was naturally born a leader
apparently not.

I sacrificed a lot of time for minimal results.
I shared
lived a triangle

I won't answer any questions
Supply any answers
Simply keep quiet because my thoughts are dark
Because they will ALL ask one day
and they will ALL want an answer

ALL four of them
or is it five

who knows

the pain-staking reality of it all is that I have this perfect part of me
that deserves all he asks for
the one who calls me "mommy"
and supplies me with the hugs I crave

he is the answer
i am the question

that is all that matters
that is the solution
us.

just us.

nothing else seems to matter
because nothing else is apperciated!
I am still human
a human with emotions
a human with a heart that only has so many pieces left.

today is when I decieded
I refuse
to continue this way
allowing myself to be apart of this